Two Couplets

I remember a very beautiful couplet; something that brings a gamut of emotions to the eyes, mind, heart and soul:

Apni Apni Sab Ne Kahe Li,
Lekin Hum Chup-Chaap Rahe
Dard Paraaya Jisko Bhaaya,
Woh Kya Apni Baat Kahe?
Khamoshi Ka Ye Afsaana Rahe Jaayega Baad Mere...

Such beautiful lines....

One more couplet that comes to mind:

Meri Be-Basi Hai Zaahir Meri Aah-E-Be-Asar Se
Kabhi Maut Bhi Jo Maangoon, Naa Miley Uske Dar Se

I love such poems - such simplicity and such depth

A desire

I have decided that henceforth I will always be Silent - I have learnt that Silence is the best answer to all that the world can say and all that the world can ask

My speech has always failed me - it's high time I embrace silence forever and then remain silent till silence envelops me forever

My Fury

I am in pain but I cannot tell my pain - someone has been insulting me and talking of a 'hidden agenda' but I am still unable to say a word to him - my anger and my fury is unbeleivabler but so is my docility - I am unable to even reply back

Had these same wrods been uttered by someone else - he would be lying on the floor with his jaw broken, his spine smashed and his face all bloodied but I am bound - there is nothing I can do, except be silent

All I remember is what I once said - Silence of the Lambs is the sanction to it's Slaughter

On Love - III

I am tired of a battle that is being waged around me on a daily basis - tired of being awake whole nights getting hit and fighting it out - tired of being deprived food and water and still being told that I am pampered - tired of wanting someone who fails to understand my love, my affection, my commitment and only sees the frustration that emanates out of those same emotions in the form of the angry outbursts that come when I find her engaged with those very few people who are the reason for her unhappiness or when she refuses to accept what is for her.

Love is not an easy emotion - there are people in this world who can love without attachment, without commitment and still they are happy and together and everything is fine in the world - there is no problem! I know of couples who claim to love each other, who have had love marriages and the distances they maintain with each other - the private space they ask for and the monetary differences that they maintain.

It's as if we do love each other, but when it comes to money, yours is yours, mine is mine; they will be calm with each other, relaxed with each other, will claim to love each other but will have walls of ego, power and other such stuff between them..... Is this the kind of love that the world thinks is love and wants me to accept as love?

They will show a lot of care, they will not be rude, they will always put up the best face and then forget that person the moment they are out of sight - still they are the ones whose love is appreciated and needed!

They will love but their love will come with riders - riders related to first their health and happiness and everything thereafter - is this the love that is great?

I used to always think that all Love is Love only if there is Attachment and Commitment; without Commitment it's a hypocrisy; without Attachment it's just a duty? Where did I go wrong?

Ajeet says that my love is too pure and none can handle it - that people want love which is impure - that love have to be impure in today's world - that no one will tolerate or be able to handle love as strong as mine and hence I am doomed to cry every night slowly, softly without tears.

I have failed in love because my love has failed this world

So let it be written; So let it be done