On Trust

The primary foundation on which any relationship is based is Trust. The edifice of every relationship is Trust. The basis of every relationship is Trust. The proof of every relationship is Trust. To be precise, the underlying Truth of every relationship is Trust.

Without Trust, there is no love, without Trust there is no affection and without Trust, there is no relationship. The child loves his mother since he knows that his mother will never allow any pain to hurt him, the wife loves the husband since she believes that the husband will take care of her, the devotee loves the diety since he believes that his God will save him from any and every disaster..... Every love stands on Trust and the first casaulty of every relationship is Trust.

As Majrooh rightly pointed out:

Main Tumhi Se Poochhti Hoon, Mujhe Tumse Pyaar Kyoon Hai?
Kabhi Tum Daggha Na Doge, Mujhe Aitbaar Kyoon Hai?

It's true that a love that's pure inspires a child-like trust, a child-like loyalty for who can trust more than a child and who can trust truer than a child? None - only a child can love truely since he's still young and has not yet learnt the ways of this world.

If this is all true, of what use is that Love that cannot inspire Trust? Of what value is that Love that cannot be trusted, that leaves a doubt? What is your Love if it cannot prove to your beloved that you would not betray her.....

Love that cannot bring the other to Trust is worthless.... it's like a piece of low-grade coal in a mountain of pearls.... it's like a star that has consumed itself and lost it's grandeur....

And therein lies my tragedy and my final failure..... my curse is so simple - to never be trusted, to never be able to inspire trust, to never be able to prove the depth and truth of my love.

At all points in my love, I have failed and now, it appears my loss precedes my love-

I wish I could say this sometime to someone:

Main Haqeeqat Hoon, Ye Ik Roz Dikhaoonga Tujhe,
Be-Gunaahi Pe Mohabbat Ki Rulaaoonga Tujhe,
Ishq Masoom Hai, Ilzaam Lagaane Pe Ne Jaa


But then we Devils are condemned for being punished for the greatest crime on Earth - the crime of Love!

So was it written; so will it be done.... for ever and ever and ever and ever - till every blood in my body is shed, till every bone in my body is crushed, till ever tear in my eyes is spent and till every thought in my heart is numbed, till all my dreams are shattered and till all that remains of me is nothing but a memory - that too dying!

But let it be known to you - God, my heart will continue to love .... it will be frustrated and defeated... all whom I love will leave me and go away, I will face nothing but loss and defeat, I will become a victim to my loneliness and one day die in the arms of this much-dreaded enemy but I will still continue to love.....

Falak Pe Jitne Sitaaron Ho, Woh Bhi Sharmaayen
O Denewaale Mujhe Itni Zindagi De De
Yehi Sazaa Hai Meri Maut Hi Na Aaye Mujhe
Kisi Ko Chain Mile, Mujhko Be-Kasi De De

Ghum Utthane Ke Liye Main To Jeeye Jaaonga
Saans Ki Har Laiy Pe Tera Naam Liye Jaaonga

After all, I am The Devil!