"So, mind my words do not ever fall in love", that was Reverend Father Leslie Almieda speaking to me after a spirited discussion on love and life. Around him sat a group of boys, all in their early teens 12 -14 years of age. The eldest must not have been more than 15 and they were hearing attentively to what the good shephard of people's souls said about Love - how it was important to life - and how one should love and that a man who could not or did not love had no God waiting for him ever.
Hence, it was very surprising when after hearing of what Love meant to me and all boys around me, feeling impressed with my enunciation of the principles of love and what I percieve is love, were busy congratulating me for my ideals, the good priest should have actually said something so contrary to the trend.
"Do a favour on your own self, sweet child, never fall in love; you are not made for love", he insisted!
I was surprised, was it because what I was looking for was very ideal or were my expectations for and from love too high; the old sage gravely shook his head and said that none of that was true; what I had said was the bare minimum required and then hastened to add, you will be seared by it - you are too pure for it - Love today is not pure - you live in an age when people who throw love in the dustbin and walk on, for who really cares for love; it's got no value and is available in plenty.
The young boy could not understand what the good father meant but today I do - maybe the good father could see within me - the ugliness of my soul may have been laid naked, bare, unclothed in front of him and maybe he knew beforehand that I was a Devil and the biggest folly of a Devil would be to actually fall in love - A Devil should only concentrate on doing what he's supposed to do - flirt, seduce, play - everthing under the sun except love - for a Devil's love is all consuming.
No one can love like a devil does or maybe no one deserves to be loved the way a devil loves - I do not know but Love has been quity a tricky customer for me
In the age where Love is easily thrown aside on the streets as garbage and people talk of interesting mantras like 'Move on' and 'Get on With Life'; why should anyone love the way we Devils do - with complete devotion and dedication, only to find that one day, our dedication and devotion would be found lying on the floor, adoring some gutter, that our feelings will be used with the equivalence of a sanitary napkin to clean one's compulsions and then to be thrown on the sides.
But then you don't go looking for love, love finds you and what can be done about it - so despite the warnings of my good teacher we Devils will continue to love and lose brutally in love and then again still love.
Loving is Second Nature to Devils.
About Me
- The Beast
- Simply put - a Bundle of Contradictions. Prince Charming this moment; Heartless Tyrant the next. - as humble as Water that flows down - as fiery as Fire that moves up - as restless as the Wind that's always on the move - as calm as Time that endures - As predictable as the Sun whose path has never strayed - As Unpredictable as the Human Mind that changes every second - as deep as the Sea that hides secrets - as shallow as a river who shares exuberance - as lofty as the mountains who think - as mundane as the sand dunes who act - as silent as the night that prefers Anonymity - as noisy as the monsoon that announces itself - as unchanging as the desert - as flexible as the city. One who can frustrate the most patient of men and still be as calm as the fool who thinks he knows everything. Distinctly Mad but with a method in the madness and a madness in the method. Defiant in loss and Magnanimous in Victory. Firm in Commitment but Not worthy of Love. A coward before battle but a fierce warrior once in battle... In short.. A Devil and a Human.. Nothing else!
2 comments:
So, at last you believe that no one deserves to be loved the way a devil does ? - with complete dedication and devotion :)
No, I am not sad, rather happy. That you realize the truth.
So, after realizing, will you please stop loving ?, atleast thinking, the person you love don't deserve it.
And Father warned you not cos ur soul is ugly, but cos its too pure for the impure feelings this world offers named as "love"
and you yourself know that too.
As said by someone, to know something get into it & how will you know what is Love if you don't Love at all.True!! expectations are high because we seek what we love and think to Love what we seek. But this world is abound with stark realities,and compromises end results the search.But the one who embraces them and seeks again is not a devil,but a true lover because for him Love never ends, it never dies.
Also,a person in love has a heart charred from the engulfing flames of Love, which inturn transforms into gold.
So my dear friend be in Love for it is pure and because if you dont then perhaps you may be the Real Devil.
Amen
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