I am tired of a battle that is being waged around me on a daily basis - tired of being awake whole nights getting hit and fighting it out - tired of being deprived food and water and still being told that I am pampered - tired of wanting someone who fails to understand my love, my affection, my commitment and only sees the frustration that emanates out of those same emotions in the form of the angry outbursts that come when I find her engaged with those very few people who are the reason for her unhappiness or when she refuses to accept what is for her.
Love is not an easy emotion - there are people in this world who can love without attachment, without commitment and still they are happy and together and everything is fine in the world - there is no problem! I know of couples who claim to love each other, who have had love marriages and the distances they maintain with each other - the private space they ask for and the monetary differences that they maintain.
It's as if we do love each other, but when it comes to money, yours is yours, mine is mine; they will be calm with each other, relaxed with each other, will claim to love each other but will have walls of ego, power and other such stuff between them..... Is this the kind of love that the world thinks is love and wants me to accept as love?
They will show a lot of care, they will not be rude, they will always put up the best face and then forget that person the moment they are out of sight - still they are the ones whose love is appreciated and needed!
They will love but their love will come with riders - riders related to first their health and happiness and everything thereafter - is this the love that is great?
I used to always think that all Love is Love only if there is Attachment and Commitment; without Commitment it's a hypocrisy; without Attachment it's just a duty? Where did I go wrong?
Ajeet says that my love is too pure and none can handle it - that people want love which is impure - that love have to be impure in today's world - that no one will tolerate or be able to handle love as strong as mine and hence I am doomed to cry every night slowly, softly without tears.
I have failed in love because my love has failed this world
So let it be written; So let it be done
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Two things dear Friend:
One, that Love is not the end of life but just a way of it.
Of all that Life has taught me of Love, I can say that we often feel the pain in Love because we feel for someone in a particular way and that we EXPECT the other to behave in similar fashion.We tend to believe that the other person loves us beacuse he/she reciprocates what we feel or do for them. But friend, that doesn't happen always.People do love you but in their own way.And the secret is to understand that.you may argue that why only you have to always understand them and why not vice-versa. But then if you love them truely, it wont matter because,as I had earlier said too,then Love will Love you back.
Second,Man's the God Masterpiece.
Everybody is special.So it makes no sense to Kill yourself for someone else.Life is beautiful but as said correctly,"Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder". So behold the beauty that lies in front of you.
"LIFEZ SHORT, SO KEEP ROLLING ELSE YOU WILL GATHER MOSS."
Behold the beauty that lies in you. And love only that which nurtures it.
Agreed with the above comment.
Someone who fails to nurture your beauty that lies within you and makes you feel this way, does she deserve love ?
I am no one to suggest but in your post,whatever you have revealed bout someone you love so much,the way it speaks about the pain she makes you feel,anyone would condemn her and say the same thing.
G
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