What do I say and how do I say?
I say I love her a lot but the truth is my love is not as true and beautiful as I would want it to be . What kind of love is this that I do not understand her aspirations, her pains, her sacrifice, all that she is doing, all that she's going through, she is suffering for my sake while I stand like a spectator watching her sufferings like a shadow unable to support and unable to fight for her (she won't even allow me to do that) - she hurt herself the other day and the first person she sent a sms with the bleeding hand was me! and I - what do I do? I just pressurize her all the time - I hurt her feelings, I refuse to understand her, I force her to listen to me, I insist that she listens to me - that she listens to all that I ask her to do and always want things to be the way I want them.
She has broken up with her friends becasue she cannot tolerate anyone insulting or abusiing me - and I stand here not even able to be with her. She has fought with friedns and family for my sake and stood for me even when outnumbered and outmaneouvered. She suffers silently but does not let me feel the pain. When she came to know I was caught in a curfew in the riots, she cried the whole day, kept running to the TV and in the process fell ill
And to think, I say I LOVE HER - No Lord voldemort, you do not love her even an inch of what she does - she LOVES you and you can never be able to even gauge how much she loves you! Think are you worth her? Think do you know what she is and what you are?
A dog cannot understand the taste of caviar - a man has to be that civilized to understand it - become a man at least, if not a human - at least for the sake of her love - A man who cannot understand love as deep as this is no man - he's a fool and fools do not deserve any respect.
I wish you could understand - what you are to me and how much what you do matters to me - I maybe unable to explain my feelings to you but that does not mean my feelings are false - I am sorry for all the pain that you go through for my sake.
I hope my love is worth all your efforts - sometimes I think you are more that what I deserve - how can a Devil like me deserve an Angel like you?
Thanks for everything - I am sorry - really sorry
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
5 comments:
Let me keep on driving now. Through the many dawns and sunsets. Let me keep on driving. Let me not try to see... let me not try to understand the Roads and the Rivers. Let me just feel.
Let me keep on driving and let me not stop. Let me never rest. Let me listen to your song and keep on driving.
A person loves only when he/she believes the other to be of same value or of much more value than oneself.So, dont even think whether you are worth her ? You are worth more than what she deserves.
And never compare love ... love is love in its own form... and its love that can understand "love"...so never doubt your love :)
One more thing ... No one on earth deserves more love than you ...cos i doubt how many can love like a fool like you do :) :) :)
all that i can say is you people are fool! neither u know the meaning of love nor u know how to love.
@ Rakhi
If you have to find out "how to" love ? then I am sorry to say, thats not "love"... and if you think you know how to love, I would say then you have never loved... cos in love one does not need to know the "ways of loving"... There are no ways of loving Madam, love is intense affection, care, feeling the other's pain more than your own...thinking of the other before yourself ....and there are no specific ways to do that .... it happens... its spontaneous, its automatic, you don't have to do it..
So, if you are trying to teach "how to love"? Then you are still far away from "love"...
BE-loved. Thats all you are asked for. Stop there. Think no more. And let yourself be...Loved.
Post a Comment